drawings,

So here i am starting my  Tonal & Value drawings, & can i say, im kinda lost? lol but i can get this,.
I need to do a total of twenty drawings, -_-
but nonetheless, im excited to see what my drawings will turn out with the negative spaces and all. :)
it's just the drawing of this measuring cup that i believe is the hardest part.

- there needs to be more time in a day.







<3 Drake - Marvin's Room.

words.

Talk has truly become cheap now, 

"what are words, if you really don't mean them when you say it?' 

- *sigh, it's getting harder to look at you the same now, here you are criticizing me, of what i did and what i use to do when your there doing that . i dont understand. You dont even know why your doing it, at least i knew why i wanted to do it, your just like every one of your friends, 

Once in a while, things are good between us, i dont think of anything until you start putting things in my brain, of what we were. Then there are times where you just remind me of how much of a jerk you truly are. Some times i am relived we arent wasting of our precious time together, but then there are those times i wished we were. Its nothing new,  my feelings arent considered, but yours are. blahh,,  

but anyways i shall leave you with a new favorite quote of mines, i found from tumblr,

"Time passes, memories fade, feelings change, people leave, but the heart never forgets, ; D&M  ♥

goodnight & good day. 

hsdkfhalkdhf

so much to do, so little time!
arghhh i hate playing catch up with my readings, & trying to play catch up with my drawings & OTHER assignments, and on top of that, my wireless is not working,
 arrghhhhh there need be like 36 hours in a day! -_- *pulls hair.

home sweet home,

So i am back home this weekend, :)
it feels kinda nice to be back, but idk, haha we'll see how this weekend goes,
Busy Busy day tomorrow with the funeral and everything .
but i needa shower & go to sleeeep, it has been such a long day.
goodnight <3

random blabberings,

It is 10:30 p.m,  a Thursday night, and here i am cooped up in my dorm, like I've been for the past four days of school.
- i finished reading my assignments, kind sorta, but i just kinda breezed through it, -_-
- my design assignments are at the back of my head , *jfaldhfladhsfkhsdkfsadjfh, yeah ill get to it , the whole process is so interesting, so we'll see how everything goes. :)
- i miss my babies back at home, Sadie, Annalise, Cullen, & JoJo, awwwh and maybe my yyyyle,
- i am a loner, lol
- my legs are so sore,
- i really miss you & all i ever want to do is talk to you, but i wont allow myself to, *sigh
- PK you should really come to KU with me, you have like less than a week until you can turn in that application for school again!
- im really worried about my books for my class, im trying to order them online and then return the ones i purchased from the bookstore, ill be saving like 70 bucks. hmm.
- im terrified of my essays ill be writing this semester! i dislike writing with a passion! so i just hope i can write a good paper this semester & pull it off, the longest i think would be SIX pages, lol
- i kinda miss my momma. :)
- i think ive gained some weight, haha but idk i havent weighed myself since idkwhen, so but i feel as if my tummy has went down, *yes! now these arms,
- i need some music,

<3

Design,

So tomorrow will be the third day for my Design Class,.
Going into Design, i had no idea what it would be like or what i'd be doing in the Class, and now that I'm here, it feels surreal & all so overwhelming!
I have to do LOTS of sketches, but its nothing i cant do, i wouldn't say i could draw, but if i really try, its kinda good, haha,
We've been talking about "What is a Good Design?" & that could be ANYTHING!
We have to bring objects and sketch them and all these things, the problem is that I dont know what items to chose or consider good, i believe that every design can be good just depending on how you view them,
hmmm, im stuck and i have to find five object, oy, who knew thinking about objects could be so hard., sigh.

bittersweet,

I feel as if we broke up all over again,  ha , funny isn't it? 

"If you can’t love her the way she needs to be loved, then leave and let someone else make her smile."

We start off as strangers & become friends, it's only right we end it as strangers, but thats not what you want, you cant have everything darling. <3

ANYWAYS, this song is everything i feel, but i dont want to find another like you, rather someone who is everything you weren't, its just hard picturing someone because we've gone through too much for me to even try and think about replacing you. sigh, i hate feeling this way,. I hate that you can ruin my entire day. & I hate that somehow 90% of the time you're the only one that can make it better. I hate that I can't get you outta my head. I hate that I can't hate you & most importantly .. I hate that I'm in love with you. Time needs to hurry up & heal this heart of mines, lol. ENOUGH about this mushy love thing, enough about you. <3

some day when i stop loving you,;

Everything happens for a reason, & ill be fine with out you, <3
 - regret nothing,